The older I get, the more I'm starting to feel perhaps I've done my part to make an effort and there won't be too many more efforts made. I need these LJ posts to remind myself exactly how bad it is, because I feel incredibly guilty feeling this way about my "loved ones." Probably not many more visits to CA. Nancy threatened to come visit me here, but hopefully that's the meaningless sort of thing people say with no intention of actually doing it.
It doesn't make it okay, but yeah, how do you change a lifelong habit? I look at it as it could be worse, but it could also be a lot better. :\
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Date: 2010-12-01 07:06 pm (UTC)It doesn't make it okay, but yeah, how do you change a lifelong habit? I look at it as it could be worse, but it could also be a lot better. :\