Aug. 12th, 2003

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Follow-up: well if anyone really wants to know, Tery came home last night and we had it out. She was predictably teary-eyed and repentant so I did most of the talking. I threw out some theories of Tabby's. See, whereas Tabby can 100% see my side of things, she has more often been in Tery's position. She tried to describe to me how drinking a certain amount of alcohol impairs your judgment so badly that part of you KNOWS you should go home, part of you KNOWS what the right thing to do is, but the alcohol insists more loudly that you are having a great time and you don't really want to leave and you shouldn't have to leave. Tery agreed that this was part of her problem, and I broke down and apologized that I wasn't as much fun as "a pitcher of beer and 6 of her closest friends." (Note: Massive guilt trip here.) We both cried and I asked what was going to happen now. She thought for a minute and said "I need to grow up and stop hurting you." I agreed. She also recognized that this only becomes a problem when she has no days off and she feels she has to make any free time she can get last. Between working two jobs, she never has a day off (the only reason she has been better lately is because for the month of July she had every Friday off, but now all the college kids are going back to school). I suggested she tell her boss at the bar that she needed Saturdays off; the bar might be going out of business soon and she doesn't make much money anyway on Saturdays, so I didn't think this would be too great a sacrifice. She agreed to talk to someone, but I know her very well. A.) she dreads confrontation and speaking up for herself with practically a phobia-like intensity, and B.) she hates letting people down (apart from me, apparently), and takes on too much responsibility and then feels stuck with it. So I will have to keep pushing her but hopefully we will resolve this.

In brighter news (?) rumor has it President Bush came to Denver yesterday. There was going to be a massive Democrat protest organizing to meet him and my friends were pushing me to go downtown. Probably the biggest thing stopping me was my aforementioned dislike of crowds (sad, huh?) I gloomily joked, "Oh, so if I wanted to assassinate him, this would be my chance?" They laughed but said I should be careful about saying such things. So I guess my belief that America was the land of Freedom of Speech was misguided. (note: if there are any Federal agents reading this, I was honestly joking and would never kill anyone. I believe murder is wrong. Although I won't deny there are certainly some people whose deaths would not be mourned by me. Like outspoken homophobic clergy members for instance.)

Wow, where did all this bitterness come from? sorry.......

-=Lainey=-
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Okay, Amy ([livejournal.com profile] minikitkatgirl)....your words of encouragement worked. I am not into vanity, but for those who care, these are some pics of me that aren't "totally heinous" (LOL)

Tery caught me unawares
Tery caught me unaware


me trying to look sexy (but succeeded in just looking goofy) in Provincetown, MA
No need to comment if you are just going to throw rotten fruit.

-=Lainey=-

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